Mah Mahtto
2005-08-30 - 8:08 p.m.

While listening to the radio I suddenly thought, "I really really wish they would play "Real World" by MB20 after this song." I haven't thought about that song in a very long time, but I always thought of it as my motto song. I even tried remembering the station's phone number to make my first radio request in over a year, but before I reached for the phone the previous song ended and "Real World" started playing.

Kooky karma!

Hmm. I wish I was in Bath, England right NOW.

Darn. Well atleast I'm there in my mind.

On other news, for the first time I felt 100% comfortable chatting to Mike w/o a girlfriend. I wanted to jump up and say - WAHOO! But that would be more odd than usual. Of course this happens right before the end of summer and I moving soon. Yarg. Ah well, it'll make Mer/6Kyle's wedding more fun.

Besides that I'm wracked with nerves from all sorts of things I'm studying and preparing for, but don't know what the results will be. I hate that feeling! Constantly nagging questions are drowning me. What if I bomb the GRE? What if I mess up on my applications? What if I don't get accepted to a grad school? What if my knee never completely heals? What if gas prices keep getting higher? What if I run out of money (VERY worrying right now)? How many more unexpected expenses are going to pop up? What if the other people in the house don't like me? What if I can't get internet, so I can't communicate with potential professors? What if my job sucks? What if my coworkers have no sense of humor? What if I go yet another year w/o even one date? What if I'm supposed to visit all the grad schools before the applications though I can't afford it nor take off the time? What if I forget some of my random bills? What if someone hijacks my bank account? What if I can't afford food this year except PBJ's? How do I afford going to the dentist? What happens if I don't go to the gyno until I'm 25 or more? What if I have to move halfway across the country? What if Cody gets sick? What if one of the kids actually gets bit by a snake? How am I going to get everyone presents for Xmas and Bdays this year? What if professors notice how I've forgotten all the ecological terminology? What if I can't think of a project because I don't know how to research it?

You know, for a start.